For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food, for love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Still

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HOPE (A message for the masses)

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I’m moving on

“leaving is not enough; you must
stay gone. train your heart
like a dog. change the locks
even on the house he’s never
visited. you lucky, lucky girl.
you have an apartment
just your size. a bathtub
full of tea. a heart the size
of Arizona, but not nearly
so arid. don’t wish away
your cracked past, your
crooked toes, your problems
are papier mache puppets
you made or bought because the vendor
at the market was so compelling you just
had to have them. you had to have him.
and you did. and now you pull down
the bridge between your houses,
you make him call before
he visits, you take a lover
for granted, you take
a lover who looks at you
like maybe you are magic. make
the first bottle you consume
in this place a relic. place it
on whatever altar you fashion
with a knife and five cranberries.
don’t lose too much weight.
stupid girls are always trying
to disappear as revenge. and you
are not stupid.
you loved a man
with more hands than a parade
of beggars, and here you stand. heart
like a four-poster bed. heart like a canvas.
heart leaking something so strong
they can smell it in the street.”

— marty mcconnell

I said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control &…

first

cologne.

holding

sweat.

verybad

lust.

smoke

coke.

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cum.

cocaine

desire.

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beer.

oh yeah!

passion.

goodbye

20 fun questions:

1. Show us the inside of something cute

2. What’s the last homecooking you had?
we used to have Spaghetti like once a week but we’ve recently made the switch to

3. What do you miss?
Texas & all the people there.

4. What makes you laugh often?
Trey- very often 😀 I get butterflies
5. What’s your favorite word?
I haven’t given this much thought… “Love” I guess.

6. What are you trying to quit?
Fred. I promise, I’m trying!

7. What’s your favorite commercial right now?
the Gatorade one on ESPN- I don’t watch a lot of commercials though

8. Whose style do you dig?
xxxtina’s 😀

9. Link to a great blog you’ve discovered lately…


10. What’s the last craft you made?
A painting for my babysitter that had StoryPeople on it.

11. A photo of the last happy mail you got :]

12. Something you’ve got lately?
sickness 😦

13. What are you looking forward to?


14. Post a recent snapshot of yourself.
most recent:

7.17.09
this will change once I have a camera again 😀 I can’t wait!

15. Recent Favorite Movie?
Star Trek

16. Something you’re working on right now?
Reservations 😦 I can’t wait for things to get back to normal around here!

17. If a movie were made about you, who would play you?
Amanda Peet! LOL

18. What gives you goosebumps?
the air outside 😦

19. Share a new obsession.

20. What’s the meaning of your life?

reblogged from {create*loves}

If you want to do it too, here’s the list to copy & paste:

1. Show us the inside of something cute
2. What’s the last homecooking you had?
3. What do you miss? (alive)
4. What makes you laugh often?
5. What’s your favorite word?
6. What are you trying to quit?
7. What’s your favorite commercial right now?
8. Whose style do you dig?
9. Link to a great blog you’ve discovered lately…
10. What’s the last craft you made?
11. A photo of the last happy mail you got :]
12. Something you’ve got lately?
13. What are you looking forward to?
14. Post a recent snapshot of yourself.
15. Recent Favorite Movie?
16. Something you’re working on right now?
17. If a movie were made about you, who would play you?
18. What gives you goosebumps?
19. Share a new obsession.
20. What’s the meaning of your life?

au revoir, Nikki

Tonight I:


* took a nice long hot bath
* made a decision.
* took off his necklace & his ring
* took the Reasons Why off the frig
* let go of us.

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